This morning, I looked back at my posts on my old blog, The Trying Game, from this time last year. It seems like just yesterday and so long ago at the same time. I was reminded again, like I am every minute of every day, how incredibly blessed I am. I have the baby of my dreams and I am loving every second of motherhood. Every.Single.Second.
This time last year, I remember feeling full of worry, anxiety, and nerves. I remember some dark, dark times. I also remember feeling cautiously hopeful.
I never imagined that my life would turn out this blissful.
This time next year, I will be the mother of a little girl who is one year and three months old. She might be walking, starting to talk.
My birthday is at the end of November. I will be turning 32. For the past few years, I was always a bit sad on my birthday. My birthday reminded me that I was getting older and I wasn't living the life I wanted. I felt like I was failing.
This year will be different. Last year I was a wreck and this year I am completely happy, content and fulfilled. This year, I will wake up on my birthday and look at Maya's sweet face and feel like the luckiest person in the world. I wished for a baby when I blew out the candles on last year's birthday cake. My wish came true. I am finally a mother, and it is everything I hoped for and waaaaaaaay more.
6 comments:
These are the days!
Its amazing how much life can change in 365 short days! :)
"The more things change, the more they stay the same" could not be more true.
You've had quite the year, and you've done ever so well.
She's beautiful.
i feel the same! so freakin lucky!
You don't know me, but I have been following both your blogs for a while. Somewhere along my journey with PCOS I ran across your first blog and became hooked because I identified with you so much. When you had Maya, I was so happy for you, and now I can begin to understand your joy. You see, I am now almost 17 weeks pregnant with my first. Throughout the beginning of my pregnancy I was terrified something would happen, but everything has been great so far. I feel like your experiences are just a few months ahead for me. I went from identifying with you to reading your posts and getting excited about what I will be going through soon. I am still paranoid, probably will be until I am holding my baby in my arms, but now I am actually starting to relax a bit. Thanks so much for sharing your experience with those of us going through the same things. Congratulations on your beautiful, healthy, baby girl!
fertilized said, "These are the days!"
I have been humming that song (10,000 Maniacs) for months now!!
I'm really happy that things are so good.
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